unplanned but not unhappy

I dont know if you would want to thank my computer for being so unabashedly tardy at downloads - i guess the end of my blog would decide that - because im typing this blog to pass my time which is exactly metered at 7 minutes and 11 seconds.I have absolutely no doubt that I won't come up with anything readable in that amount of time so save yourself the regret and me-the curses. This is like a clear forewarning from a nice person albeit a terrible salesperson for doing just the opposite of her job.
Anyway, so my latest topic of bhelpuri banter stems from my hatred for 'PLANS'. I am fighting against them like a woman on a mission trying to prove a point to make the world a much-less complicated and unplanned place. First, Ill tell you the origin of this battle - in one word - a friend named Suchi ( yeah weird name, I know, whatever!) and her gnawing obsession for getting microscopic about plans.Next, Ill explain my reason for the rebel.
OOOOPS...my download is over....
can I continue this later?
I hadnt planned it you see....

;) ha ha...relax...was pulling a fast one on ya...
Anyway, Im against them because I believe it takes too much energy to be conscientous in your professional surroundings as it is; Isnt it enough for the day to stretch the whole masquerade while letting your hair down too.
I mean, 'we wanna go out for drinks', so we JUST WANNA GO OUT FOR DRINKS. Pick a place, an outfit, your peeps and head out there. Why, and im seriously asking WHHHHYYYY those 100 phone calls before your FINALLY AT THE PLACE! And yeah, isnt it always.. ALL-WAYS better to do something in the next moment that you hadnt thought about or imagined you would be doing. You can throw in some surprises for yourself once in a while cant ya!
I feel like watching a movie NOW so Im gonna GO WATCH A MOVIE NOWWW....and I know that even if I end up going for it alone - because of my boorrrring friends being too uptight about the lack of preparation - I am going to enjoy it. If not the movie, then the thrill of catching my mental planner offguard and beating it to the chase.
Yeah,so you get it? I like being impromptu. When it comes to relaxation, I prefer not knowing whats next, I prefer challenging my thoughts once in a while and I get a good kick outta it....but this blog wasnt to enlighten you about my attitude towards plans but rather to enlighten SOMEONE about their obsession for them...


P.S : download got over long time ago...I MUST REALLY HATE PLANS!

Mystery Number :

A man who does not plan long ahead will find trouble right at his door - Confucious

A woman who plans long ahead and troubles her friend over it will find MURDER!

be my angel for life..every time I close my eyes

I cant believe I wrote my last blog in november....actually...sorry...Ive been cheating....writing has become like sucha compulsive catharsis....im back to my dear diary days....only in a more tech savvy form now...I type it rather than pen it....hope that explains 'UNPENNED'...and the stuff is too personal to put on a blog...not that anyone reads mine anyway..sob sob.......sob sob...and some more sob sob......
anyway...Ive been overburdening myself with expectations and emotions....and Im creating this big mess up within my skull....its soooooo much since the past week....Im just waiting for it to burst...so I can feel free....life brings about so many changes soo soon..that u literally dont realise your living it.....strange......
anyway...Im having a writers block because of my emotional baggage...
so Im gonna be lazy....Ill just update you on my new years resolutions and I pray to dear oh god.....to let them not be jinxed.....I hope 2009 brings in lots of joyy....

1. do not swear..
my friends think this is tooo adolescent...but I hate the sound of cuss words from my mouth...eooowww...so no no..none of it for me anymoee..

2. don't let other people be the reason of your happiness.....or sadness....
- I used to be this shockingly self sufficient person....Im dying to find her back...

3. be calm be patient be positive...BREATHE.....1....2....3....4.....5....6.....7....8....9......if not calm....count again...

and my last and favorite one...

4. end the day with the night....
I wanna begin each day..like a new one....I thought 1st jan was a new beginning...and I want every day to be the same...I want a fresh start,...sunny side up....everyday...and peaceful sleep..the night before....washing my tensions away...with sweeeeeeet dreams.....and happieee lives....n luv...loads of it

2009....HERE I COME......GOD BLESS!!

and this one isnt my resolution...but..
I want to learn to forgive....and I hope I can be strong to face it.....

37. its only in a dark sky..that you see the stars shine.
38. like everythin else....THIS TOOO SHALL PASS....