waitin on the world to change..

Im really inspired at this moment...I just watched RDB for the hundredth time...It gets me thinkin...about our defense....about the men who volunteer to go out there and fight....Its another thing standing by your parent's side after getting a glimpse of a patriotic movie n tuggin on his shirt to tell him that you wanna be one of those men in green one day....And its totally different....when u leave the option of getting one of the degrees that everyone around you is conveniently obtaining....gettin a good job and having one of those happily-ever-after married lives....always around to see your girlfriend-cum-fiance turn into super wifey..and the nitty-gritties of your kids....its such a convenient option...y wouldn't anyone opt for it...I dont understand...I cant read their minds..I cant get into the head of a person who will volunteer to give all this up...and sign up in the army,navy or air force.....Once you sign up and your in the system...its foolproof to ensure that you wont regret your presence there...you'll never betray your country...once there...your just proud to be a part of that world...to be making such a difference to so many lives....but that one step...of just signing up for it...and watchin your parents shed tears when they hear the news...unsure if they are of joy, pride..or fear.....just that one step....needs the courage of a thousand men....I respect that sooo much...If I had it my way..well....we'd never need anybody to sacrifice their lives to cover up somebody else's mistakes....mistakes of segregation, discrimination, independence and all that BULLSHIT!!.....If I had it my way....there wouldn't be any country at all......we'd live on EARTH... the way the apes did.....the drink-and-be-merry life.........wander.......wonder....laugh..itch....eat..sleep...
well not technically that way....but with freedom to be the master of your own destiny.....Sometimes I wonder..if we really have evolved for our benefit.......the more we seem to evolve the more complicated our lives are becoming...what great use are we making of the life of a scientist...who spends an entire lifetime to find the cure of a fatal disease.......when the fatality is actually beginning to claw into every existence of our being.......I'm not sure we were meant to turn out like that....to fight for survival at every step....In the world I hope to live in....there's alot of bliss...and love...and happiness.....and positivity....I'm being disgustingly hypothetical I know....more than half of ul who read this are already 6 feet under a heap of workload and tensions and stresses to be dreaming about a perfect world....
But I have a sweet memory...of the time when we were kids...innocent lil people...we could just get out of bed....topple over our heads in the sand.. and smother our feet in the puddles....we could chase a fly endlessly with the hope of catching it....and always fail...but have fun anyway..we'd pplopp pebbles in water....just to enjoy the sound of it..play in the mud with our buddies....
finally tire and lie down on the dewy grass....and stare endlessly at the sky....for no reason...there were no dreams....and there was no foresight...and there was no regret....just lying there.....staring at the sky...we'd watch the sun fade away....watch the moon and stars.....n hear their story....and at the end of a playful and untidy day....smirk naughtily and run into the arms of our mommies..who'd tuck us safely into bed.....and we'd smile to sleep....because...tomorrow....we'd do the same thing....n be AS HAPPY AS TODAY.







33. You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. In Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them......but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears......Most people turn to the things and people they can trust.......
But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely....cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true......
- Meredith Grey.

34........that's why...we're waiting....waiting on the world to change..
- shraddha.

eyes open..

Iv been livin with a shadow overhead...

Iv been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

Iv been lonely for so long..

trapped in the past..

I just cant seem to move on

Iv been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

just incase I ever need 'em again someday

Iv been setting aside time...

to clear a little space

in the corners of my mind..

all I wanna do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

Iv been watchin

but the stars refuse to shine

Iv been searchin

but I just dont see the signs

I know that its out there

there's gotta be somethin for my soul somewhere..

Iv been lookin for someone to shed some light

not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

all I wanna do

is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

and if I open my heart again

I guess im hopin ull be there

for me

in the end.....

There are moments when I dont know if its real

or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

not just another negotiation

All I wanna do

is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

and if I open my heart to you

Im hopin you'll show me what to do

and if you help me to start again

then I'll be there

for you

in the end....